New Shit.

hello, addicts! happy new year. this will probably be my last entry of 2008. 2009 is a matter of hours away, and i'm very amped about it.

i do have this nagging little cold, however, and i can't seem to shake it. what worries me is that, right now, while i'm at work, there are a million people at my house drinking. well not really a million...more like a half a million. and when i get there, there will probably be more coming. i sincerely hope that my other half has the presence of mind to stop the guests from fucking up any of my shit.

to celebrate the coming of the new year, the other half and i decided to get some liquor (a whole LOT of liquor, to be exact), order a couple of pizzas and invite a few friends over. the only problem is, i'm sick, and i probably won't be much fun tonight. i've been pumping myself full of painkillers and chicken soup and blackberry tea with a touch of honey and vodka for the past 3 days in hopes that my symptoms would subside enough for me to be able to enjoy this night.

they've subsided. the symptoms. they're just not fully gone. i have this awful dull headache above my left eye...i have the sniffles, and to be truthful, i'd really rather just have a glass of champagne and go the hell to bed. i've been secretly hoping that nobody shows up to the little get together we threw...but no such luck.

they're over there.

they brought two kids.

i'm kind of mad about that. no, that's not right. i'm just a little irritated about that. i was hoping that it would just be the adults, if it had to be anybody at all. i love kids, but they whine, they cry, they fucking shit themselves, they knock shit over, they scream, they're loud and they're generally not very considerate. i have too much nice stuff for kids to knock over and fuck up and break and wreak havoc upon. i'm hoping none of that happens tonight.

jesus christ, my elephants!

my fucking ceramic elephant collection!

i swear to god...

*whoo-saaahhhh...*

whatever. anyway, 2009. i don't think i have a new year's resolution. i'm not going to say i want to lose weight, or quit smoking, or land a good job(namely because i already have one)...nothing like that. i think i'm just going to resolve to make myself a better woman, in every way that i can. educationally, physically, spiritually, all that. i want to make myself a better woman.

and i want an apartment on mt. washington. that's my crazy new year's resolution. i'm going to get myself an apartment on mt. washington.

a lot of crazy things have happened in 2008. a lot of bad things. katrina. iraq. bush in general. afghanistan. bombings. beheadings. hangings. death. dying. despair.

looking back, this has been one shitty ass year.

the only truly good thing, globally, in the midst of all the bullshit, that has happened is obama.

i can only hope that his arrival will signify positivity for this country and for the world.

the only thing that i can promise is that i'm going to do my part to make this year better than the last. i will be more involved in my activism. i will volunteer my time to the animal shelter. i WILL go back to school. i will be on my grown woman.

you know, i've noticed that on myspace, a lot of people have said things like "imma be on some new shit in 2009. stay tuned."

feh.

what is this infamous "new shit" that everybody's supposed to be on, that we are all supposed to "stay tuned" for? what does that really mean? no one ever seems to elaborate on what that truly means. does this mean that we're finally getting rid of our deadbeat baby daddy's? does this mean that we're not going to allow the girl who works at the jewelry counter at Macy's to sabatage our job as a cashier? does this mean that we're going to finally rent those 20 inch rims we saw at the rim shop and put them on our 1991 cavaliers? does it mean that we're going to increase our hours at the hair store so we can stop wearing tracks and start saving up for a lace wig or two?

:) i'm being facetious, but what does that "new shit" really consist of? inquiring minds would really like to know.

if i'm going to get on some "new shit", that means that i'm going to make an attempt to get a promotion at my job. that means that i'm going to read more books and try and learn more about the existence (or lack thereof) of a religion that didn't use its values to brainwash people. it means that i'm going to learn more about the legalization of marijuana. it means that i am going to learn more about the process of getting out of the military so that i can help soldiers that have been lied to and abused by their commanding officers and thus, the military in general. that means that i'm going to make strides in my education. that means that i'm going to be more available to my family. that means that i'm going to be a better friend. that means that i'm going to attempt to find myself, and figure out what i really want.

that, my dear addicts, is MY new shit. what the fuck is yours?

happy new year, everybody.

see you in 2009.

until then...

One L♥ve.